sigh

ive finally gt my mom to agree to let me go to London. but now i feel bad. she had a long talk bout how its difficult with money. she went on and on sayin that im being very childish at times and tt i don understand. how irresponsible my dad was. and me implyin tt im gg that way. how we owe my aunty and uncle so much for all their help.

and the she goes im nt sayin this to make u feel guilty, or sad. but u need to know. i don want u to be like me and therefore not have many things in life. and the talk goes on and on.

now how to hav fun if and wen i go? i mean i do wanna go. BUT after all this? den if i go n tell her no nvm i shall nt go, she will say no, go.

bloody contradicting she is. one hand she will tell u all the bad things and make u feel like the worst spec of dirt den she will say oh no in a way its good.

*runs around*

now at this rate. even though i wanna go overseas to study i will get another round of speech and even longer and harder.

some FILTHY RICH guy marry me already. finance my life already!