u think uve moved on but u hav nt...u never will...everyday u go on thinking tt all is fine but in fact its not...u live in a lie created by yrself..to fool no one but yrself...everything you say and do comes out of that lie...u think tt the lie is helping you fell better but it only makes it worse..living in a shell makes u live in yr own fantasy world of selfishness and self-pity...self-pity that makes u feel so sorry fo yourself tt u do not give a chance to yrself to be a better person...self-pity tt does nt allow u to connect with anyone except on a superficial level...

y is it tt we don seem to understand the basics of life? y is so hard for us to learn when all we seem to do is to look back into our past and turn a blind eye to where we are right now and our very apparent futures? y is it so hard for us to let go and to move on? why cant we forget the past or forgive past sins (thought of or real)?

we are made, live and die, no matter the order u do it..over and over again till uve learnt all that uve learnt..no matter how long and how many lifetimes u take...

no matter how much i try i cant seem to move on...im still stuck at that moment and im still not over it...i cant seem to get it out and tell you but now i have and many of you at a time will be reading this...i cant voice it out cos it hurts too much and its still there...cant seem to help it...ive got to move on...crying helped...it did...