today was an early class! and AGAIN Prof Bennet like Prof Pauline Cheong is sticky abt coming late into class...but this guy does not even allow us to go out during toilet break! this is tooooo much! gosh...the last 45 min i was sitting so that i can force myself to keep my pee in! PC and i went to Adam road hawker to eat after class.... Per was driving her dad's car and i SWEAR i was fuckin jealous.
she got her license WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY after me and she started driving 2 weeks after she got it! IRRITATING MAN! i wanna drive so much that its not funny any more! I so wanna drive! argh.....CAN SOMEONE BE A DARLING AND LET ME DRIVE? cheriamma and abbie mama will NOT allow me to drive his car. and y? cos i will destroy the car after i touch the fucking wheel! *excuse my french, its the anger and frustration speaking*
i want to drive. and my darlin amma wont let me rent a car. She used to tell me "what is the use of sayin i know how to drive when you do not drive at all?" now shes saying "driving is an art". So i tell her "if its an art and i don do anything about it, i will loose it. so wads the fishing point in me getting a license anyway??" and to this everyone else tells me that i should go for the refresher's course; WHY? so that i can get to drive a FUCKING car!!!!!
gosh!....well we've got 6 weeks of this semester. that means that in 2 weeks time we have mid sem exams and 3 weeks after that, end semester exams. the week following that is the next semester! yay! we'r screwed!
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I know in my previous post i mentioned that i am attached. well thats now over. well i realised that we do not have anything in common. and u know whats funny? it all fell into perspective when i overheard some guy saying 'they [i don know who] reminds me of a chicken and a duck talking, they do not understand each other' and suddenly i realised that my relationship with him was like that. we were from 2 worlds trying to meet. maybe we did not try hard enough. but neither one of us were truly happy. i personally did not want to be in a relationship where i was not happy. it came to a point where every time someone mentioned his name, i would ask them to shutup and change the topic! but im sad. i really thought it would last. i really did like him. maybe its not meant to be.
after this incident i realised that i need to be with someone whom i can talk to. have a conversation without having to kill myself over what he said. even if the education status is not the same (lower) as long as i can sustain a decent conversation with him its good. also i need someone who can make me laugh and have fun with, and im not talking sexual fun!!! that is secondary here! hahaha....
so here i am waiting for THE ONE! he will come. how he will come is another issue. SKALLI he's some country pumpkin from some RURAL part in India. Oh i will soo kill myself (of course no offense to anyone).
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