too loong

its been too long and too many things have happened....my bday's over...my party's over...so sad...well diwali is in a few days time and i have been going to Serengoon road all too many times....tml im going again! gosh...but its fun..im finally in the diwali mood...after soo many years...i feel the excitement and the fun, eventhough i do not celebrate it...=) ah well...took fotos of serengoon road few days back...took too many photos and don't know which to put up...will load it up else where so that everyone can see my work =)

my life is hectic and fun at the same time. i have pockets of down but whats life w/o it? the few things on my mind are grades, my INDIA trip and my internal loneliness...i feel like i have a gapping hole inside of me sucking everything in....i don't feel trapped anymore...cos i realised that i am not...iv placed myself within the cage so that i can feel more secure. a little well in which we all live in....like frogs in a well, not knowing what the real world is.

frens can be bitches sometimes but so can i. they do and say things thinking that what they say have no effect on the rest. when they feel like it they shout and scream, if nt they are sweet and nice. they keep grudges for so long...i think thats childish...live and let live...forgive and forget! we are all mature adults...well most of us are mature....some....actually none...i realised im much like my grandfather...i fight now, feel angry abit later and the next day when i see you, im go on as if nothing happened. no one can feel the way i do, but then again try to understand just as ive tried to understand u.

am i being too narcissistic? im afraid im being too all about myself now a days. back to how i used to be in primary school. change is the only thing thats constant in this world and i have to change if i want to live.

think about it...a rolling stone gathers no moss...but a rolling stone will soon be a rolling sand. its good that we are ever changing cos the world around us changes but then again what will become of us when we roll too much?

SERENGOON ROAD here i come AGAINNNN *groans*